so yeah i got a redoctane ignition pad

time for an update... no?

well

i hate living here

i wish i could live by myself

school sucks

i hate being fat

i hate being stupid and that im not up to par w/ everyone else at school

i hate my family

i hate filipinos

i hate doing things for filipinos b/c you cant "not " say no; you get trapped

i hate the fact that i dont have anyone to talk to, like about serious stuff

i hate the fact that i feel like no one wants to listen to ME

hate being ME

i hate that i feel so alone...



yeah whatever...
happy new year

well, its official. today was the last BK meal of my life. yeah. daym you bk.

started working out and running again today. yeah. i need to get in shape, especially if i get casted in the musical.
im tired of being fat.

so the auditions went okay. yeah i dunno. i was like part of the first group to read. sooo yeah not so much time to prepare. and apparently the script was in the library for months now? no idea? yeah. oh well. i guess we'll have to wait.

so no more rock rock BK. farewell.

bonjour all the healthy foods and ways of eating that i learned in my foods and nutrition for wellness class that im taking right now. yeha crazy. and ive been going to bk. soooo ashamed. oh man. alrighty.

farewell all you staff. maybe we'll give you guys an xmas card.

"im sorry arteries. i know, i know, its okay. just hang in there until i lose all this extra poundage."

yoooo im workin' on my gunsss oh hahahaah

yeah so when i flex its gonna shoot someone and ill be like oh shoot sorry didnt mean to shoot you

haha yeah

lemme summarize this ::

i started lifting

AWWW

awwww
i so definately ♥ my friends!!!
nothin but loveee baby.


so let me tell you about it.
so this week has been sort of crappy. was bummed i couldnt go to ny to see rufus w/ chelle, andrea2000 (;D jk jk), and rach and gill.
plus the rain made it gloomy.
until today. :D
so they sort of barrage me after school, lol. we're in a circle. then they pull out a present. and theyre like here!
i really surprised, and am like what??? so they tell me to open it and i do. and i see a barnes and nobles bag! ahhh
so guess what is it? the want two cd. signed by rufus himself. oh hollllla.

THANK YOU [GIRLS] SOO MUCH.
youve made my week.
YOUVE MADE MY CHRISTMAS.
YOUVE MADE MY LIFE.

NOTHIN but LOVE bab-eh` ;D

using ImageReady is fuuuuun

yeah sooooo for a bit time now ive been wanting to be able to make my own animated gifs. and so i went online and searched to see what i needed to make them. unfortunately i didnt have any of those programs. and then only yesterday, i found that i did. it was in the "photoshp" folder. haha lets just say its not mine... sooo i found the imageready program. and its soo good. haha making animated gifs of ppl is great. its fun. really is. maybe ill put some on here. haha. with their consent first, of course.


heather!

yeah sooooooooo. yeah...

EARTHTONE

Earthtone
^^^CLICK.
GO AND LISTEN. they are really good. john, jonah, luis, and josh. mad good. i was a bit surprised. so GO. now. just do it. youll smile.

ghetto update

probably not another real one until winter break.

ughhhhhh. i cant wait for it.

i hate this right now, but im sure if i just keep on ill get through it.
^that refers to more than one thing.

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hey just wanted to say CONGRATS to H.FERN on getting her LICENSE!! yayyyyyy oh yeahh our crew has grown of age. lol

yeah so got Halo 2 yesterday. mad cool. except havent played a lot yet. this week is hectic. also heretic. haha yeah.

so yeah.

lets see.

tomorrow
eng test? no idea. gotta study/read anyway
chem stuff! outlines/problems due friday, and dont want to be doing that instead of studying
my 200 mots french composition is due tomorrow also, about le flim au revoir les enfants... ugh. have to finish that

friday
chem test yeah. boo.
eng test? i dunno. ugh.
my french examen revisions are due. shiiiit.

yeah it may not seem a lot but it realllly is. esp the chem stuff, and eng. cuz apparently we have to know all the characters, etc. from wifes tale... and since our class is small, we really didnt go over all of them.. hmm.

alright well wow its already 9.41. shit. okay bye all gotta get back.

hey alllll

help me lose weight!!! cuz i want to be a medium shirt size. yeah

i need to for health reasons too. blehh.

need to lose this gut and my susus! :P oh man. blehh.

i ♥ NY

i want to live thereee. so fast-paced, so much to do. it never stops. i loooove it.
ahhhhhh, manhattan.

i ♥ H&M
♫♪

NOO DRAFT

my one pic that i like

hey looks



ok

the pic looks a lil bad though cuz i dont feel like resizing and etc. etc.

"au revoir le livre! au revoir le papier! bonjour la tete!"

im lookin to buy a scanner...

le sigh.

i dont know where i am right now.

but i dont want it to be in this negative limbo.

how about patching things up? :/
i really sure would like that...

yo i hate it when people just ignore me. like i listen to them and all their shit and whatever and then when i have sumthin to say, they just ignore me. fuuukk that yo. im not sayin "i dont want to hear what you say" thats quite alright, but then to have them not listen to me, noooo. and then when i try to give them a "taste of what it feels like" they get an effin attitude. yeah. fukk that.

some people need to get a better attitude.
cuz its makin me not have a good attitude.

peaceOUT

p.s. i wanna see the grudge. yooooo yeah out today!

AHHHHH

yoooo right now this time is CRAZY

so much stuff to do

applications.

HOMEWORK.

trying to reach my goal.

yeah. everything is crazy.

i dont even know how im gettin through this stuff?

and i dont need all this attitude/angst from people ‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡‡. yeah.

whoa... rusher.

you ever get that feeling where youre just striving and striving to get things done, and that if you dont, youre screwed and everything feels like its gonna crash down on you? but then later you feel like everything is gonna be okay, like not to worry anymore, just get done whatever you can, and all the rest will come through? yeah thats how i feel right now, like. ugh. school tomorrow.

yeah so let me tell you how much i LOVE my bed and my nice and comfy comforter. cuz it issss. haha i love it when its cold and then you just get in bed and SLEEP. i heart sleeping. its sooo good. haha. im sure some of you can agree with me on that statement.

meh......

sorry for being down and shitty right now, but thats just the way i currently feel. i dunno. everything is weird. and i just dont know.


SATs tomorrow. i hate them. why should that test be accounted for for anything? efffff the SATs.

btw i reserved Halo 2 the regular edition or whatever. i dunt need that extra dvd stuff. yeah its only 5 bux, but 5 bux is 5 bux. ya kno? o well at least im gettin it. and i want to get Doom3 when that comes out tooo.

........

what happened to me?

i can never be who i want to be
im just too dumb, too fat, and too socially aware...

who am i?

no one can hear the silent screams...

sighh on

yo my life is boring. bleh.

right now i feel weird. like i dunno. like im just bored w/ everything.

im just bored w/ everything.

when will i get a car??? neeevvver. oh well. walking is sufficient. [at most times]

in need of a new LAYOUT

anyone have any suggestions?
GIVE me suggestions. lol. i dunno. if i have time ill do something different and simple.

yeah. i feel like i want to go to college. if i was in a dorm, you know id do my homework. ahh i heart the life.

and daym all of you. lol. i didnt get artistic. oh well. i quit doing homecoming. =P

hey kids

well right now im cleaning my room, cuz apparently one of the factors of me not seeing any signs of any car is my messy room. so yeah thats what im doing.

ahhhh relieved

yeah all that english homework is gone and done with, and now ive gotta focus on everything else in school.
i need to get invisible man read.

i need to get an AP book for english, maybe chem, and i need one for french. french is hard enough.

yeah and i need to really get to frikin work on my sat book. daymmit its almost time for the next ones. i NEED to improve. a combined score of 1180 is NOT good ENOUGH.

ive gotta lose weight too. we're getting a treadmill. i really need to. i bought school clothes in smaller sizes than i presently am so as to motivate my ass into getting into shape. uhm yeah not really worked. but i wish my ass wasnt so daym big. goddaymmmmm it.

i.....

heart garden state. i loved it.

sooooo......

let me tell you how my first day of classes went. well id better make this brief cuz ive gotta go eat a snack or something then get right to work and study on my english.

homeroom -- sameold. some people were late, and they didnt even know it started at 7:30. sucks. 1st unauthorized late.

1st block - AP CHEM - yeah so let me tell you how theres like 6? 8? seniors? im not sure. the rest are juniors. ahh! i feel dumb. well thats the way it was when i took APBIO. lots of seniors in that class. so yeah im going to have to work soo hard in this class. study. outline. study. etc. make sure i know what im doing. and NO PROCRASTINATING. those who know me, yell at me to get my homework done if i didnt do it yet. or else im gonna die.

2nd block AP ENG IV - this class will be fun. theres only 9 kids in my class. (so far). 5th block has like 24? i dunno. rachel said it was packed. now that sucks. hopefully i can keep up with this class too. ive gotta still finish my explanations of poems, and finish the graphics, and also the 3 study guides ( i still have to finish invisible man =O )

3rd block - lunch - but today we had a lecture thing about the new rules. lets just say they suck.

4th block - FOODS - yeah i definately didnt know that this class was gonna be work. well i mean more work than i though. sheesh. textbooks? binders? daymm. the only good thing is that i may be able to have a good ass diet and know my nutrition.

5th block - AP FRENCH IV - wow. Mme Kocis is gonna be fun. daym. if only i could understand a lot more of what she's saying. she spoke french like 95% of the time. im getting better. i just need to know my vocab so i can at least get the gist of what she's saying. sheehs. and ive gotta speak and write french all the time. hopefully i wont fall in this class. i like french, and hopefully after taking this class ill be able to know a lot more. maybe she should of came here when i was a freshman. id probably be fluent in french right now. but oh well. amet for two years? whatev.

so thats how my day basically went. it was hot and muggy today. did not like it at all. ughh sweaty.

hopefully ill be able to stick to my exercise and diet. i need to shed this dead weight.

last day of summer has past...

and its time for me to go to sleep. its already 11pm. well hopefully tomorrow my classes wont be bad, and ill have fun. but i still have to finish my english and study for the english test on friday (basically tomorrow). well gnite everyone. peace out. hope your summer was a blast. here comes the class of 05. geez im a senior. so weird cuz no one is higher than me anymore. and its weird cuz everyone is off at college.

UGH i cant do this anymore

FUCKK i hate this fucking newspaper job!
i dont care for that daym ass scholarship anymore. i just want to quit.
the effin bad thing is i have to wait fuckin 30 days. cuz i have to give them daym 30 days notice.
but i cant be walking 45 minutes every freakin morning just to do this.
15 minutes to walk there, 15 minutes to deliver the daym papers, and another 15 just to get back home.
fcuk it takes me the same amount of time to get there and to do the job itself. NOT WORTH IT.
and then right when i get back im gonna have to get ready real quick then head off walkin to school.
i fuckin hate this. i wish i could just quit right then and now.
this "job" has ruined me.
since i have to wake up so early, sometimes i cant. and my mom yells at me in the morning.
[[ parent/child relationship == -1 »» cons +1]]
since i have to get up early and do this, i cant stay up the night before and do homework if i need to
[[ cons +1 ]]
since i do this everyday, and its so not worth it. i get less pay than ritas employees
[[ cons +1 ]]
the people i deliver to get on my freakin nerves sometimes.
[[ cons +1 ]]
i get billed, i have to collect the money from the people. thats my paycheck.
[[ cons +1 ]]
i dont even get to keep the money. the money that i get i have to give to my dad.
[[ cons +1 ]]
its like im broke, even when having this stupid job.
[[ cons +1 ]]
the new recently added saturday newspaper. no more sleep ins OR sleep overs. fuckin shit.
[[ cons +1 ]]
their system is so unorganized.
[[ cons +1 ]]
people take advantage of me. i get an order to deilver to them, then come collecting time, they say they didnt order. thanks, people, you get the newspaper but dont have the courtesy to call and say you didnt order. yeah, thats cuz you want the effin free paper. eff you. that means more money taken away from me.
[[ cons +1 ]]
theres a lot more, but
yeah i think you get my point. i just wish i could quit right now. and would not have to deliver tomorrow. but i have to fukin wait 30 days.

PS. im getting retakes for senior pictures. dumb thing is i have to pay another 10 dollars. effin shit. doesnt matter though cuz im not ordering any since, i cant afford it.

God, its like why the hell am i here?

ugh please help guys. i dont want to feel like this any longer.

i want to feel normal and not an outcast.

i dont want to feel like everyone is staring.

i dont want to be the bad egg of the family.

i dont want to be a lot of things.

but the unfortunate thing is that i believe i am.

ugh...

alright kids... its only 6 weeks... from today to october 17th... hopefully by that time ill be changed for the better... and a lot more healthy. cmon guys, keep me motivated to keep this up. its only 6 weeks. and these 6 weeks can be life changing for me. im excited. i cant wait.

"You gotta hear this one song, it'll change your life I promise you."

hey kids. i finally got the garden state cd. its great. it really is. i truly heart this soundtrack.

"Maybe that's all a family really is; a group of people who miss the same imaginary place."


well im gonna go take a shower. later on i hope to do some eng work at the school lib w/ heather and rachel.
kay well ttyl. hopefully ill get everything done by the end of this week. this is the final stretch.


you know, i really cant wait for the silent, cold nights that make you stay inside and *snuggle* in your bed and drink hot cocoa. haha. i love that...



and God, its already september...

aww i want a picture of the gang, like all of us, including me to put up on my cork board. cuz i dont have a pic w/ all of us in it. ='[

well. when was the last time youve said "i love you" to your parents or given your parents a hug? or something of the sort? i dont think ive ever said or did anything like that in say ever?

=/

its funny... how a few simple words like "i want you to finish your homework" can make me a little hopeful and happy. for when it comes from a parent who you think doesnt care about you, it seems like a future milestone.

still havent gotten the garden state soundtrack or the frou frou album. it wasnt at target... and i dont really want to go to sam goody and pay a hunk load of money. ill find it sooner or later.. but sooner is better.

i hate collecting.
newspapers suck.
boo.

my cousins just came back from the philippines last night after about 1 month and a half of being there. havent seen them yet.

well i guess im off to finish cleaning my room and finish my homework. im going to have to walk to the school tomorrow, first to talk to mrs dearden about changing meterology to forensics. and then to the library to do my english. im going to have to go early though, cuz the "recommended time" is 9-12 for the library. so yeah.

argh

i feel broken. maybe ill just post something up on xanga sayin ill be leavin that alone for a while. i need to update this a lot more often. its already been about 2 months since my last post. =x yeah. well school is starting soon in about a week and like 2 days. sucks. i need to get all my english homework done. or else. im screwed. i have a test on the third day.

i need to do my SAT book. i hate how everyone is sayin theyre gettin like 1300-1400s. it sucks. i only took it twice so far, and i only got an 1180. sucks. didnt even get 1200. all this college stuff is making me stressed. so much. and on top of that regular school. and all the other activities im going to do. like STEP. and i havent even got a call or anything about that STEP minicamp or whatever we were supposed to have this summer. oh well.

i need a job. yet, i dont think ill be getting one. and i dont think ill want one during school, esp. now. i have lots of stuff going on, like step, keyclub activites, homecoming, nhs and nahs events, raising money still for france (if im still going). God i need to lose weight.

yeah did you know i got this program back in the middle of july. and i started it then stopped. then again i started it then stopped. im really going to start tomorrow and not stop. i need to get committed. the program is only 6 weeks. i really need to lose weight. i hate being fat. i want to fit a medium instead of an xl. i dont want this big ass anymore. everything makes me self concious and socially aware. i have issues.

ugh family? broken. i dont think its going to mend anytime soon. family sucks right now. really does.

i really want to see Garden State. and i really really want the garden state soundtrack, along with frou frou's Details. i [heart] the music. makes me feel like everything is going to be okay. ugh. cuz i know that everything is not. its nice to feel happy and hopeful once in a while.

right now my main priority is getting my daym AP english homework done. i still have kind of a lot to do. and i dont want to be left the night before finishing and studying. that really sucks. i need to get to the library. and i need a car to get to the library.

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sorry was interuppted. and i fucking hate family. goddamn it. i just dont feel like i can live this life. someone talk to me before i do anything rash. please.

//EDIT//
new layout. new colors. blue. the color of sadness. just wanted something more interesting to look at. dont like it? toooooo bad. =þ

bored with it all

well heya. im kind of bored. i shouldn't be. i have lots of time. so many things to do. but kind of lazy to do it. ive gotta def clean my room. and get more progress done on my english homework. i should be doing my SAT book too. really need to bring that score up.. i only got a 1180 so far. boo. how bout that 1300? aighty. yeah i want to see Spiderman 2. and i want the soundtrack. good songs.

yeah so i dont know where im at. im such a dork. i havent not been out w/ anybody ever since summer ended, well maybe once. ugh i need to get out more often. i really want to go to the beach. but im so tabaaat. but i want a tan. yeah. but yeah. i need to get out in the sun a lot more. i want a pool. or go to a "private" pool. where no one is there. yeah. i want to go swimming.

so yeah i sent my "who's who" thing today. hopefully itll get there by next wednesday, or else im screwed and won't be able to be published in the 38th edition. AP grades are available by phone today, but you must spend 8 ATP (as fitz put it) to get it. i might as well wait for July 15th in the mail. and see how bad i did on that biology exam.

yeah so i just want to get out more often in the sun. have fun in the sun. fun in the sun. i still need to lose mad weight. i lost like 5 pounds. i think. around that. yeah. mad ddr for like 2 hours gets you really pumped. its weird. the first half hour its really tiring and my right calf just hurts. but i keep stretching it out and later its fine. and then like after 45 minutes i just feel so energized. i should play for like 4-5 hours everyday or at least every other day, like Tanya Jessen. shes my idol. hah yeah. i just want to lose weight. im controlling what i eat, yah know, fruits, etc, and resisting a lot of carbs, etc. ughh. no soda. thats no problem. dont really drink soda, and drink lots of water. no problem either. i like it when my pee is clear haha. it means no acid. (haha ewww.) yeah so anyway...

yeah im just soo alone. wheres that special person ive been waiting for? out there somewhere doing the same? where you at?



(where are them comments? would like to get some feedback nah mean?)

someone give me new bright undull colors to put this site

yeah well 1 final down. too bad i failed it

2 more. english and french.

gotta study

cleaning first.

byeall

this summer im taking control of my life

stressed... only 3 more days but its gonna be TOUGH

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just took that. well uhm today was kinda crazy. made madd crazy cupcakes for the brainerd/eastampton kiddies. it was our last day for Yeager's Teens. well that went well i guess. but i came back, went to show choir for the last 5 minutes, then talked to V. apparently i missed the final and couldn't take it cuz it was a group final. and i told her i wasnt going to be here next thursday cuz the yeagers teens trip to six flags, and then she was like well, u cant miss it. its the final, etc.etc. so i was like fine, and then i guess she felt like she could give me a chance since i dont do anything bad in that class or to her etc. so she asked me if i could do it by myself, and of course. it shouldnt be that hard, and i know everything. so im doing it tomorrow morning during tutorial. so that means i gotta wake up early, so im ready and able to sing and dance. all that stuff. just hope i dont mess up the deng shining star harmony stuff. its so weird, but oh well. i would have gladly taken that ZERO for not taking the final (if it meant missing six flags for only 15 bux, and missing class), its not like it would hurt my grade, i think i have like a high 90s area. but whatever. im glad im not doing choir next year. its too much. maybe the school musical if i make it. but yeah. i was kind of mad cuz of that. like i knew i HAD to be there today. but hopefully ill just get everything done tomorrow, along with the individual final. its just starspangled banner, major/chromatic scale, and sightreading. and highest/lowest note. i think theres more, but its not hard. whatever. i just wanna get choir DONE. so after school went to step meeting. our hw is to make a step for tomorrow and then present it to everyone. i have 2 little steps that i made already, but im gonna combine it to make it better. holla. haha. uhmmm i might be able to go to France, which reminds me i forgot to ask Amet for the france info. cuz i need to know the price area. and so i can start fundraising/making MONEY. ugh still need a job. uhm my biology thing is due soon, i think tomorrow, so i gotta do it tonight. what else. i dunno. ugh just so stressful right now. and theres like 2 more weeks of school. thats it. and then i can go submit that BCT scholarship thing which i better get MONEy for. whole daym reason why i did the daym newspaper job.

so yeah

18 days until last day of finals

so yeah i saw Cold Creek Manor and The Life of David Gale. both were good, but cold creek manor was kind of weird. eh didnt like that movie as much as david gale. wow finally saw it after a long time. i recommend you see it. its good. makes you think and stuff.

well hmm. i dunno. im bored right now. i should go exercise my lazy ass. i cleaned my room a bit. just gotta put some stuff away. once again, i have a floor! haha yeah. uhmm. yeah 18 more days. 18! seems so little but seems like its gonna be a long 18 days. hmm.

well hmm tuesday i have yeagers teens. we're having parties in our classes. its the last day. so its gonna be fun. but they have hw they need to share with us. well i gotta make cupcakes and stuff and somehow contact my other group ppl who i dont have any contact information... hmm. this is gonna be a toughy. haha. hmm maybe someone else has their sn or something.

wednesday is folwell field day. helping out with that for yeagers teens at the end of block 2 and block 3. theyre gonna feed us. haha yeahh. supposedly they have good food. so yup. dont need to buy lunch or whatever. thatll be fun.

and thursday, yeagers teens once again. but the reward thing. which means we're going to SIX FLAGS! holla. 15 bux each for us. yay. havent been there since summer 2001. sheesh and before that it was like 6 years or something. hopefully ill be able to fit in those roller coaster seats. haha.... getting a bit snug. shooot.

well cant wait for step next week. really hope ill make the team. haha its gonna be hard to bond with all those girls though. i think so. so many.

so yeah. nothing else happening. except i just really need to start studying for finals. =( dont wanna take them. finals suck. but then again, if i just study and work hard these last few days and such im sure itll go by faster. like this week, it went by so fast. on thursday, i thought it was tuesday. maybe it was cuz the Germans were there. haha i dunno.

i really really need to lose mad weight. i really have to. i think its cause i dont have too strong of a will. but i do. i dunno. i gotta change my eating habits. bleh. if im gonna do step, im going to have to be fit. F.I.T. haha yeah.

CAC=
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yerp. well ill write later. see ya!

(this was xanga entry. right now im in the process of making a new icon cuz this new york one is tiring me OUT. today the 30th is also ernie's birthday. so happy birthday to you, if you read this or whatever.)

hmmm.

oh man. uhm everything was pushed back. thank Goddd. but that means im really gonna have to study tomorrow, saturday, and sunday, and get all my hw done. remember, theres only how many days left? 25?? i think thats it. hollaaaa. yess. it seems so close, yet so far away. man. i cant wait til i get a job. i really need one. but dont know where. plus theres car problems. cuz my brother works now and he needs it too. my best bet.... would probably be at scary D.E. Jones. i dont want acme. too long a daym app. and at the computer. what the hell. why no paper? shiet. lazy ppl. or staples.. but i dunno. i need like all these references and stuff. hmm. maybe. but i dont think theyre hiring. i realllly reallly need a job, preferably close to my house.... so if i have to walk or something i will. oh this sucks. check out my xanga... i changed the colors and changed it up a bit too. im gonna change this. cuz its dull. and dark. check it out. leave me a comment. about the song. or anything. if you have an account.

hurting

yeah am i supposed to hurt in my arms and stuff, like i cant bend it w/o using my other arm to stretch it out? or is that just the sign of really really being out of so deng shape, im just gettin used to like, level ONE. haha prolly. i dunno. well im working on doing a lil routine everyday. runnin' included. but this week is like no time week. week from helllll. well gotta get back to study. studying is really hard for me. ehh. so hard.

UGH

soo much crap to do

this week (including next monday) is hell week. the buSIEst week everrrr yet.
aghhhhhhh.

yeah im tryin got to do situps (sorry bad grammer and not paying attention =P) pushups and abs stuff. haha targeting my abs and chest. yeah
i wanna be that skinny, yet not skinny skinny boy. haha i just wanna be thinner than i am now.
im faaat.

cmon pushups. work fo meeee.

uGhing it

uGh. hah yeah. well its friday. and i just came back from Mr. RV. amazingly steve schmidt won! hollaa. hah although i did vote for »HALFY. MR MAY. hah fun stuff though fun stuff

oh man..... bio final less than one week! (NEXT FRIDAY!!) and AP BIO not this monday but the following MONDAY! shieeezicle. i have to study like crazyyyyyy. oh man.
oh yeah since im on school stuff, what is up w/ no more Calculus honors? theyre cutting that out and making it AP? what? why??? uGh that means ill have 4 AP classes on me... wasnt planning on it. but ehh im dunno what im gonna do... take it or leave it. shoozy.

well school is almost over. june 18th? not sure. but i cant wait to go to SIX FLAGS for YEAGERS TEENS. june 3rd i believe. HOLLA. Andrea gets her time, i get mine. haha i just hope i can fit in those coasters seats. =x hahahah yeah.

so yup im really tryin to like just lose daym weight. losing a little, but i want like a lot. hah yeah dramatic. ehh hopefully b4 senior pics in august. or at least b4 senior year starts =x

well that instrumental concert is actually next thursday. which SUCKS. b/c im gonna have to study like CRAZY tomorrow and sunday. my bio FINAL is friday, like i said, and i wont have time to study last minute.

what else what else.... well my car battery is okay. thank God. i wouldve had to shell out like 75-100 dollars. which reminds me to write that i still also need a JOB. right now im kind of not caring where.. as long as its decent wage and kind of close. cuz i cant be working just to pay for the gas that i have to use to get to the daym place. yeah.

history sucks. i really hate it. i need to study crazy for that too. i kind of hate his review games, b/c everyone has to participate, which obviously makes it fair, but it sucks b/c i dont know any of it. haha yeah im dumb. i just need to really study. english is bad too. (and im just talking about the actual classes) its just all busy work. and my research paper. UGH. daym draft due wednesday?! what?! i better do it this weekend...

harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban! jUNE 4th!!! oh yeahh. haha.

yoo S_T_E_doubleP-E-R-S YOU KNOW! haha yeah... i wanna do it next year. and yeah im like hardcore serious. haha if i lose weight i might just do it. cuz its really mad fun. my younger cuz was teachin me sum steps. its just holla. haha BREAK IT DOWN.

well nothing else for now. besides me wanting to learn the guitar, nothing.

and me on love life? »» hah. =\

im so stupid

yeah so this morning i went to go to school and i get in my car and go to start it.. and surprise! nothings working. it wont turn on. the horn doesnt even blare *beepbeep*. yeah. so luckily my dad was home. so he hurriedly took me to school. and then the whole day im thinking, i probably forgot to turn the lights off last night, but i wasnt sure b/c i was certain i turned them off.. but unfortunately i did forget. b/c supposedly the switchy thing was on headlight... oh man. so my dad jumped it while i was at school and so it should be fine. uGh now im kind scurred ill break down. b/c of the battery. bleh its my fault anyway. o well. im never gonna do it again. and isnt it funny? b4 this happened i was thinking of putting post it signs or something telling me to turn off the headlights.. hah.. but never did. well thats what happened... and so today i was on a roll doing my homework. b/c in the words of many people, im the biggest procrastinator. yeah. im bad. but the voices of Wicked helped me through it. yeah i really want to see that show. haha CAMP too! haha yesssss i got the DVD finally. love it. bwahaha. nice. now i want Big Fish. dvd tomorrow. woohoo! but the camp dvd cost me 30.. big dent. o well. its a rare find.

what the eff

oh jeez. school sucks. homework i mean. yeah homework just sucks. well whatever. just wanted to rant somemore. i need my daily rant. hah okay. well bye kiddies. oh yeah and i got my parking permit pass thing so now i can drive to school woohoo! u know that rocks. hope you all get to do the same soon. (unless u already are) im just glad cuz i wont have to walk to school anymore (yup no bus for moi) o well.

sad... but true....

yes... today IS THE LAST DAY OF SPRING BREAK! :X noooo! oh man i hate this. now ive gotta do my homework but i realllly reallllly realllly dont want to. this sucks. i have a lot to do. oh man im screwed. argh like i said before why cant it just be summer already? everythings goin good i guess. oh mann. the weather is maad nice. bleh i hate school. rant rant rant. sorry guys. well i guess i better get started.. someone give me more spirit to do homework, other than AP EXAM and SATs... eff eff eff eff eff.......

Easy to use... twist off cap... urin-....

well it was saturday... now its sunday. just decided to get a live journal cuz its cool. ill still do my xanga.

welllll. uhh this morning i woke up kinda late... at 9 something? then i went to tita mayettes to pick up some food stuff... then acme. then came home. then went to maureens for cotillion practice.. then staples w/ bro. then to target. then nettes again. then i went back home. yeah i really need to go to sleep now. shiet. its late. eff eff gotta do my homework!!!

well daym i cant believe tomorrow is the last day of break. it was long - it was hard - well not really. bleh i hate school. oh man! gonna have to spend the whole daym day tomorrow doing all my shitty homework! crap! so not cool. gotta finish my essay and then the big thing, gotta do my research and read the great gatsby (well most of it... gotta read it by friday) bleh. uGh. why cant it just be daym summer already? that would give me incentive to get a job already. shiet. so i can buy my gas.  yes i got my license and driving is a Godsend.

i saw kill bill vol. 2. sooo great. hah the best part (and grossest) or wait i wont say it. heather. xO. oops.