Sia - Buttons (Promo Video)

MMM love this video. love her.

Tired

So sleepy. ugh.

Yes this is so true. ugh school is a drag. my fam is coming tomo night so thatll be cool. i need to do dishes. im gonna go do that now before sleep. peace

So i'm sitting here in

So i'm sitting here in my apartment getting ready to go to the library. to study. pharmaceutics. i have an exam on monday. white coat

Coffee and White Coat

So this week's worries are over, but that doesn't mean my worries are over. Now it's Pharmaceutics on my plate along with IPEP. Along with studying for Physio/Patho already. AGAIN. The fun never ends.


So my white coat ceremony is this Monday and my family is coming up. Fun. It's going to be a busy day. Mondays, of course, are my worst. BLAH.

Coffee makes me happy. Iced right now. Because Lord knows it; it's effing hot.

So Quick Post

I'm in the library right now studying with Brigitte.

And I just felt like I needed to encourage and remind myself.

Do everything you can and do your best and if you fail, then at least you know you tried your hardest. Then you can work on improving.

But if you don't try your hardest; if you feel like you slacked, and then you fail, then you truly are a failure.

It Does Exist

An awkward picture with the famous icon from Donnie Darko taken at collegefest.

I hate my eye. I look like a retarded chameleon.

And now it's back to studying. I could've went later and saw the Shop Boyz, but oh well. It's study time in Beantown.

My So-Called Life at MCPHS.

Landslide

I found this and fell in love. I want to do something like this.

So Many Things That I Want to Do But

There's simply no time for them.

Just for my tracking, I'm going to list them. At least, most of them.

-make a shirt. something inspiring. something that other people will look at and put a smile on their face.
-practice my violin without having to be "hush sound."
-make violin covers
-get a job (i really do need to do this one though)
-explore more of boston (find those undiscovered coffee shops, hang out in the park, etc.etc...)
-make new friends
-sketch in the park
-do paintings on canvases
-take inspiring photos
-play more piano (or in my case, 1980s ancient keyboard)

Those are only some of the things I want to do. And that's already a lot if you think about it.

Instead I'm studying. Three (3) exams next week. Ugh.

At least I can look forward to CollegeFest this Saturday... that's if I get sufficient studying in beforehand... Biochemistry exam and Pharmaceutics Lab Quiz on Monday.

Yikes.

Someone write me because I hate to say it, but I'm starting to get lonely here all by myself in the apartment. Everyone else is too busy doing their own thing... it's sad really. So write me snail mail. If you're a random person reading this, leave a comment with your e-mail address and I'll send you my address. Send me something, why not? Bright up my day. I like getting mail in my box. Except for when they are bills. Writing my first check was fun... but now it's just a dent in my checkbook.

Stressed Already

I'm already stressed a lot. And to date we've only had two weeks of school so far. Yikes! There's just so much material for each course. I have a quiz and an exam on Monday and another exam on Wednesday. Ugh.

Biochemistry.
Human Physiology/Pathophysiology.
Pharmaceutics + Lab.
IPEP. ugh.

The books and I are going to be very good buddies.

Here's to You

Here's to you, my imaginary reader. I thank you for listening to my ranting, my life stories, reveling in every little detail of what I have to offer.

Here's to you, as I sit here in my apartment, table scattered with books and paper, ready to be devoured by my eyes and mind.

Here's to you. I live my life as it comes, doing what needs to be done. No more screwing around. It's time to become an adult, and I thank you, imaginary reader, for being here all the way through, in the past, the present, and the upcoming future.

Here's to you.

Mondays

They're the worst day in the week for me. I have class from 9-4 straight. It's fun stuff. Oh, so fun.

And now I'm trying to eat but I feel sick. Meh.



I have a new mantra. Er, not a mantra. Actually, I don't really know what a mantra is... (dictionary.com)... okay, not a mantra. But one of those, "I'm going to live by" thingies. So here it is. I'm going to stop trying. Not really stop trying in life. I just mean, like, if people don't want to deal with me, that's fine. They can go off in their merry way, and part we will go. Otherwise, I'm just going to live my life day to day, accepting those who want to have me as a part of their life. I don't want to be one of those people that pointlessly try and try with no response on the other end. It's tiring and is something I just don't want to deal with anymore.

So. There you have it.

The Postal Service cover - Such Great Heights

I found this today and fell in love.

Studying and a Haircut

So all I've been trying to do so far this weekend is study. It's getting there. But it's already Saturday night. And I have nothing else on my plate except study. Because everyone else is out of town. And yes that's my 30 dollar haircut that I got. It was the first time I ever had the "wash and cut" dealy. I thought my hair looked fab in this picture, even though I'm not smiling or have my eyes open.

I thought this was a cool picture that I took. It's sort of artsy.


Now that I look at it, I feel like it should be up in a middle school somewhere, with a witty educational slogan.

And this is me, when I'm trying to study. Sleeping is my passion.

I Guess After All This Time Thinking

... that I wasn't, I am. I'm still a loner. It's weird. I don't know what to say. How to interpret what I'm thinking.

Someone should talk to me about this. But not feel awkward, or obligated.

Oh I know, a therapist?

Hah. But who has the money for them?

Yesterday was that Tequila Rain "Welcome Back Social."
It was okay. I didn't drink or anything. I had lab this morning at 8. So ended up leaving there mad early. Even though there were a BUNCH of people there, I still felt sort of alone. I guess I don't fit in with those people. It was basically all the frats who were there, drunken, and all the freshman future wanna-bes. I was with some cool people, but the people who I really wanted to be with were a) MIA or b) unable to hang b/c of other duties. I feel that our friendships may not last long anymore. Everyone has a busy schedule. And I might as well just let them steamroll ahead while I go at my own lost and unaware pace.

And in other aspects of life, I'm confused about as well. Mer.

LIFE..

Shouldn't I be really happy? I have my own place, I'm living in Boston for Christs sake.

Maybe I'm looking too much into this stuff.

It's only the beginning of the semester. Let's see how things roll out.

Confused. and Having a Good Cry.

You know, having a good cry where you just let out everything is good for you. Who cares if you're a guy, girl, gay, or straight. Crying helps when you can't do anything else.

I wanted to put this 2 days ago, but didn't have time.Can you see the old man? This is from my bathroom window. It's the dumpsters for Back Bay Manor. It's an old Asian man collecting cans and bottles. I don't know how I feel about it.


I just took this. I don't understand how someone can like me, but someone does. I'm so confused. God, my self-esteem is low. I'm so fat.

Crying helps. Letting go that hard exterior helps. Whatever.

Because, somedays aren't yours at all.

Mer.

Mer... It's only Tuesday. At least tomorrow is hump day... I will write more later... I promise. :/

C'est Moi

Me, being a good boy, studying/reading in my bathroom.

AWESOME. Ridiculously happy.

So I'm sitting in my apartment, with mostly everything unpacked. My family is still here.

But now I have to deal with all this business:
getting internet
getting cable
finance junk
verifying information
ordering more checks
etc.etc.

Because right now I am stealing someone's internet. And as I type, I am going over all this stuff I need to do.

"Liberty Mutual. RESPONSIBILITY."

It's Official

I am leaving very soon.
I cannot wait.

I'm not looking forward to any traffic or whatnot.
I hope everyone moved in earlier instead of when I get there. I hope.

Laters.

Going to Sleep...

So I am quite literally sitting on my floor typing this on my laptop, ready to sleep. I disassembled my bed, so tonight I am sleeping on my floor. Everything is not quite packed up yet, but tomorrow is the last chance, so I'll have to finish everything. We are also getting the U-Haul tomorrow, so then I can pack that up and all. I am really sleepy. I am just typing this with my eyes closed b/c I am about to be knocked out. Well good night.

BTW I want to see that Rob Zombie remake of Halloween. Even though the 1st and original is probably the best and can never be outshone.

MM HMM girlfriend.