Finals have begun. Oh Lord.

I have 5 finals. One on each day of the week. Two of them at 8am! Gross. Anyway I can't wait until they are over.

Back to studying.

I HATE THE RAIN. And I'm so dumb. I wore my new brown leather shoes and nothing flagged me when I hit the front door of my apartment building and I saw it was raining. Of course, I did have my umbrella. But I didn't think anything of the shoes. I should just worn my sneakers and brought my shoes in my bookbag. Or just worn something completely different so I would've worn my black shoes. I know for a fact that those can stand water. Ugh.

I really do hate the rain.

I feel weird. Like I don't have a place right now. And it feels like I can't relate or talk to anyone on a level I'm seeking. I don't think I've ever opened up to anyone fully. Everyone just gets snippets here and there. i'm longing for that connection. I guess that's a reason why I want to have someone. He could be someone I could tell my deepest and darkest secrets that Ilve never told anyone. Life is hard.

Somethng in me has also clicked. I've decided I don't want to be fat anymore. It's going to take work, but I need to do this for myself and my health. I need to prove to myself that I'm able to face a challenge and complete it succesfully. I also don't want Type II diabetes.

So from now on, I'm keeping myself on the downlow. I'm not going to speak my mind as much because all it gets is ridicule and I'm dead tired of it. We'll see how everyone likes this me.

my heart is damaged. i thought that i should let you know, that my heart is damaged, so damaged. you can be my wonderful. so how're you gonna fix it?

do, do you got a first aid kit handy? do, do you know how to patch up a wound? tell me, are you patient, understanding, cause i might need some time to clear the hole in my heart tonight.

-danity kane. get their new cd.

and im studying for my patho test while drinking this huge d&d iced raspberry coffee. its good.

its so nice out! i love the sun. it makes me happy ;)

Do you love it?

Do you love it? Ámélie loves it.

"what do you say we leave for California?
if we drive all night, we could make it by the morning
and no one has to know if we decide to go
oh, what do you say we leave for California?"