Wow, it's been a while.

So it's been a while since I've posted a blog. Let's get up to speed.

I went home for Thanksgiving break and I got a MacBook. I love it. Came back to Boston, finished the last week of classes and then finals. Those really sucked. I did horrible on all of them. I did, however, pass all of my classes. I don't know if I'll get to keep my scholarship. We'll see I guess. :(

Anyway, that's all. It's almost 2009. I have a feeling that this is THE year. To find myself, to achieve my goals, to find someone. I have a feeling.

Alicia Key's "Prelude to a Kiss" pretty much sums up how I am feeling right now. In all aspects of life.

"Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere

and it's gonna take so long for me to get somewhere

sometimes i feel so heavy hearted

but I can't explain 'cause I'm so guarded

but that's a lonely road to travel

and a heavy load to bear

and it's a long, long way to heaven

but I gotta get there

can you send an angel?

can you send me an angel to guide me?"

So that is how I'm feeling.

Off to bed.

I worked from 2-10 tonight.

Work again tomorrow, 2-8. Friday 4-10. Saturday 10-6.

Home on Sunday morning? I think so...

Violin, MacBook, clothes...

I feel empty. Getting a taste of what I want and then having it taken away just makes me feel worse.