Procrastinating...

That is my Physiology/Pathophysiology professor and his family.

"So that's why he's all up on the Japanese-y..."

This is a picture from my sister... Oh, look! It's the Quiznos Sub I worked at during the summer...

Waiting to Get Into Lab...

That's my lab. It's about 8 o clock and here I am waiting to get in. I'm usually the first one here waiting like a geek ten minutes before and then everyone else starts to roll in.

I've got class afterwards this and then it's studying for the entire weekend again... AND getting ready to go home... buying my bus ticket and packing.

Later.

One More Exam Before A Short Break

I've become fond of blogging on my phone. I mean it does have a full keyboard. Why not?

Lately, I've really been feeling alone (as stated in my previous entry.) I still have one more exam to get through before I can take that 7 hours or longer total time trip home. At least it'll be a break. I really need it. :(

Even my friends and such just do things that sort of indicate "I don't care about you that much." So I pretty much accept that fact and don't really bother anyone when I feel like talking...

Oh well.

I need to shower and study.

Concert is tonight. 8am lab tomorrow morning.

Ugh. Then a weekend full of studying for Monday morning's exam.

I just want to play my violin in the park or something. For my own enjoyment, and if anyone else wanted to listen in they would be more than welcomed...

I'm really not feeling school and studying right now. I'm itching just to take a break from it and all of these exams.

I also have tons on my mind, yet it sucks because I have no one to dish it out to. And those that I feel that I could are busy or others will tell me to shut the fuck up and stop whining. I need a therapist. I'd much rather pay someone to listen to my bitching without them telling me otherwise because it's their job.

Ugh. Someone cheer me up. I need it.

Make me smile and I'll bake you cookies. Well not really, but it's the thought that counts right?

Also, I hate being fat, my left eye, and my teeth. Three things that hinder me and cause low self-esteem.

Life right now sucks.
And I'm probably going to be alone the rest of my life.

Once again, someone cheer me up.

Norwood Middle School Fight Posted on You Tube

Kids these days are getting more and more reckless. I hate it.

What's the use of fighting? You're going to keep going until something serious happens? Murder?

They don't think of what the consequences will be. I hope those other girls were expelled or greatly disciplined.

It's What I Want

But unfortunately, can't have for a while... I'm brokes. I really, really want those holiday drinks! Eggnog latte... peppermint mocha... and that other one. Hah, I can't think of it right now. But they are all good. Eggnog latte is my favorite.

Maybe when I go home for Thanksgiving, I'll pick up a carton of eggnog. Non-alcoholic of course.

Le Sigh... Again.

It's November 9th already. Well, the 10th, because today is almost over. Where the hell did my time go?

I have 3 (three) exams before Thanksgiving.
Biochem - Monday
Pathophys - Wednesday
Pharmaceutics - Next Monday

I think I'm going to go home on Tuesday. Meaning I will be skipping Trudi's class. I'll have to tell her. So if I go home on Tuesday, then I'll have until Saturday. I'll be coming back Saturday.

Ugh. I cannot wait until then. But three exams block my path. SIGH.

In other news, something happened to me that has changed me. For the better. I've learned from it. But never will it come out. At least for a couple years.

I'm eating Cheddar and Broccoli soup. It came in powder form, and all I had to do was boil water, add the soup, and stir for 10 minutes. It made one half of a gallon! Yikes. I guess I'm going to be eating soup for the rest of the weekend (which by the way, I had off today, for observance of Veteran's. BUT as I stated earlier, I have an exam Monday, so I do have classes.)


Anyway, I hate money. I really do. Everything requires money. And prices just keep going up for those essential things: food, shelter, clothes. Although I'm not buying clothes because I don't need them... but food and rent. Those are ongoing things. Meh. :/

I WAS ATTACKED!!!

Still At It: Even More Determined

I'm still at it even though I just took three exams this week already. Even though I don't have another for about two weeks I'm already studying for them. I really need to do well. I know I say that all the time but the two exams I took Monday did not go over too well. I don't exactly know how I did yet but I know I did bad.

So I have to really step it up and just study better and get things done or else I'm screwed. Plain and simple huh.

I hate how I didn't learn to study until, what, last semester? Fuck. I'm trying my hardest now though. We'll see what comes from it.

It's Halloween and I bought makeup from Walgreens b/c I wanted to put a zombie bite on my neck. But we'll see if I actually do. Haha.

I'm getting candy on sale on Thursday morn. Hell yeah. Haha.

Sad... yet determined. oh well.

So this year I am not going to the Harvest Ball. Although I completely was planning on going... up until this week hit and it dawned on me that I don't know half the shit I need to know for my two exams on Monday. But I also have an exam on Tuesday. So now I'm studying instead of dancing and eating good food along w/ getting free glassware, provided by SGA. Oh well. Instead I'm going to study my little heart out and do awesome on these exams. I better. I'm not not going just to do bad on them.

Fo real.

I Need to Step It Up. Period.

So I'm finding this the only way to blog now. From my cell phone between short periods between classes. I feel so overwhelmed with everything, but then I think to myself: why is it so hard? Just get your ass in gear, step it up, and just do it. No fucking joke. This is my life and if I fail out, I wouldn't know what to do. I don't want to think of alternatives. I already overheard other third years saying they were going to transfer to do something else if they fail
a class. It makes me nervous. I'm not failing though but I definitely need to do better though in all my classes. "Act like a transfer" is my new motto.

Sigh

You were in my dream last night. We were in a park, sitting on one of those wooden benches. The weather was unbelievably amazing. We were just cuddling in each other arms. You were playfully biting my shoulder.

I turned and looked into your eyes, and we kissed. And kissed some more. You smiled and started to laugh, which was so cute. I smiled, too. Then you hugged me oh so well.

Temporary Insomnia

So I went to bed at 1:30am ish, and then I woke up at like 3:00am. Ugh and I couldn't fall back asleep, so here I am. I had to be up early anyway because I have lab at 8am. Ugh. A total of what, 1.5 hours? Shit. What's wrong with me? And Wednesday and Thursday morning I was so freaking sleepy. I even fell asleep in Biochem. UGH.

Going to go find something else to do. Maybe study. Or eat like the fatty I am.

It's Almost Been A Week

So I had to fix that. A quickie post for now.

There just have been exams every week. And all I can do is study for them. And it does pay off.

I just need to keep up on that and don't fall behind in any subject.

So in other news... I had a mishap with my phone. My phone fell in a water puddle outside... so water damage. The outside keys work well. But the inside keyboard is not working properly. I have insurance so I'm getting a replacement, although I had to pay a $50 deductible. Oh well. It's better than paying full price for another one, or any other phone at full price. So I'll be getting that sometime this week.

But now I must go back to studying. I have a Social Psychology exam this Thursday which I'm kind of nervous about. But I just have to study more.

Also, I'm doing the Phonathon again. So my evenings from Monday - Thursday are taken now. Monday I have chorus. Then Tuesday and Wednesday is Phonathon. And Thursday is orchestra.

I have a Biochemistry exam this coming Monday so the entire weekend will be devoted to that. But I also need to study for Pharmaceutics, Pharmaceutics Lab, and IPEP because the following Friday is Harvest Ball, but the Monday right after I have exams in all three of those classes. FUN stuff.

LATER.
By the way, I hate my eye. And my teeth.

Where Else Would I Be?

Well here I am once again, studying my life away in the library. It sucks.

I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. Sorry, random but it's true...

Here It Is

So I got my phone. It just so happens it was in the office downstairs, and that they did not notify me. Instead, they put a card with someone else's apt in my box. But yeah it was downstairs the entire weekend, and since no one is in the office in the weekend, and on Columbus Day, I had to wait until this morning.

I'm Lonely...

Today is a New Day

Something has clicked in me. I don't know. But no more "puttzing" around. Let's see what comes of it...

On Friends and Relationships

I'm not going to rant. Or complain. I just wanted to get my opinion out there.

I have friends that are in a frat. However, I knew for a fact that once they decided they wanted to pledge and be apart of it, our friendships would never be the same.

And thus, the reality of it all.

Of course, they have their loyalties now. Their brothers and sisters come first. Fine, sure, whatever. Understandable. But now I don't treat it anymore as waiting for them to invite or whatever. It's just me moving on, not waiting.

It's cool though when they try to make time to hang out with me. But it's not the same. It doesn't feel the same. Because then I just get bombarded with frat talk, this happened, and that happened, and yeah I know it's your life, but really, what about me? I hope I'm not coming across as selfish because I'm really not, and I'm not trying to be.

I understand that that is part of their life now. It's a lifelong commitment. Sure, I understand. But when you're not with your sisters and brothers, couldn't you simply just leave it at the door, for one time?

Starbucks

Starbucks Coffee rules my life. mmm.

I'm Getting a New Phone

I should actually have it already. But, I think the Office downstairs has it? Or it's still in the process of getting to my apartment... However, both the office downstairs and the mail system do not happen on Sundays, and since Monday is a holiday... I will have to wait until Tuesday! UGHHHHHH. Tuesday is too far. I have a Physiology exam Friday. And in IPEP I'm pretty sure they're going to pop us that quiz this Wednesday. Wonderful.

Haha Finally

So last night was the first time I drank since being back in Boston.
No, it wasn't a party. Just me and a friend. We had a good time, watched 300 and went "Hey...." every couple of minutes, haha.

There would've been more people but a lot of people went home to work, or simply just had other stuff going on. Whatevsss. We had a good time ;D.

So yeah I have my Captain now. Heh. Of course I didn't drink a lot. I only had like one double shot then a strong rum and coke. Haha it felt good.

From NYC

This picture is from when I was in nyc in june, at the skechers store. they are girls but i like them Haha. if only my feet were smaller..

I love studying

Last night was the white coat ceremony and my family was here. it was alright, nothing too big. im getting the enV soon. its on its way to my house so my dad is going to ship it once it arrives. enV orange. holla.