Just A Short Update

Hey everyone, I'm doing just a short update as I get ready to head to the Q. Haha. I'll have worked four days this week, after today. And next week, I'm working five days. Sweet. I need money. I owe my mom and sister a lot. I'm going to open a Bank of America campus edge account. Yeah a little late, but I want a debit card thing.

So this weekend, I'm heading off to Bear Creek or Bass River. I don't know which one... I forgot. I think it's Bass River. But yeah, that's where I'm headed with the family. We're staying in lean-tos or however you spell it. So that's where I'll be Friday - Sunday.

Unfortunately, I'm working 4-close on the 4th of July. Oh well. I'll make my own fireworks in the oven toaster thing haha... yeah right, then I'll get fired. Haha. I'm pretty sure we'll be slow that day then. Everyone will be not here, especially visiting the Burlington Center Mall when there's fireworks going on everywhere and such. Damn, now I want to grill stuff. I'll have to wait for this weekend.

Okay I must go get ready for work. And by the way, I hate wearing the stupid visor for work. My head was not made for hats. If I had a regular hat, then maybe it would be better. But it's a visor. Ugh, how did I ever go through that visor phase back in 8th grade? 7th grade? Oh my god. I was such a big fatty then. More so than now. Okay I must go.

Bye.

An Awesome Weekend In NYC

I spent the weekend in NYC. Manhattan. New York. Whatever you want to call it. I looooooooooooove NY. I finally saw Wicked. SOO awesome! I loved that too! I ate at some great restaurants. Roxy Delicatessen (which was really expensive), La Masseria, and Pigalle. MMM great food. Love the street fairs - we got a plate with Starry Night on it. Got music books at Colony. Love it. Even though its overpriced. We stayed at the Mariott Marquis. 28th floor, awesome view. Had a mojito, tried amaretto sour, and bay breeze. Walked around a lot. Had Starbucks, street fair bubble tea, playbills, hot guys and gals. ;D haha.

I miss the city.

This weekend in NYC has refreshed me.

I need to lose weight and be pretty like all those city walkers. I hate being squishy.

Life Sucks!

Not totally. I just got back from my interview. And I was like a shoe-in to the lady, Louise. However, they were only looking for a local person to work in the pharmacy. Just like what happened to me with Deborah. Ugh. I understand though, they said it takes about 3 months to train.

My interview went well. She asked me situational questions which required me to bring up past situations where I exhibited those characteristics. Like "explain a situation where you had to work fast but still keep high quality," or "explain how you worked in a team," etc. That part went well.

But yeah, she kept saying it was a shame that I won't be here in the fall because she'd take me in a second.

Whhyyyyy does my life suck? AHHH.

So instead I updated my application to include Cashier and Cart Pusher/Greeter. Oh man.

Hopefully I'll get cashier so I can get that experience.

DAMN I would definitely have that pharm tech job if I wasn't leaving.

BLAH.

Just Living These Days As They Come

Quiznos is not that bad. I believe I've passed the most annoying part of the job at this certain Quiznos - the hovering. Yeah.

But anyway, I got to visit Caitlin again and got to see her not-bad-on-the-eyes boss up close. Haha. And when I was getting boba, he was down there and actually spoke to me, haha. Cute.

So yes I love bubble tea, boba, whatever you want to call me. And I love the 10% I get off there because I work at the mall. But I can't keep getting larges - they cost exactly 4 bucks after the discount. That's quite a lot. But the guy is nice, he gives me the extra overflow, instead of throwing it away. I give him a dollar tip. Schweet.

Walmart called me yesterday for an interview, but because I couldn't come in today, I'm going tomorrow morning at 9am. Yay! Hopefully I'll get a pharmacy tech position. Then I'll have two jobs. I feel like I'm catching up with everyone else, but yet I'm still behind. I still want to be waiter at some point in my life. Just to experience it. And to, you know, also have the experience. It never hurts to have that on your resume, right?

I got paid today, finally! And now I know how much I'm getting an hour there. $7.25. I think that's what I wrote on the application when it asked how much do you expect to get paid. Damn, I should have put down 8 dollars. Oh well. So I worked a little less than 39 hours. You do the math, minus the taxes and junk.

This weekend I'm going to see Wicked in NYC with my sister and her friend! Yay for going to NYC again after a long time. Port Authority does not count. We're staying overnight as well. I've never stayed overnight in NYC. This will be fun. Period.

Okay goodnight, I need my sleep! Wish me luck!

Why Hello There

This weekend was alright. I worked on Saturday and got to visit my Caitlin at Things Remembered. Too bad she was busy though. Hopefully we'll get to chat more next time I come visit. Hah. And mmm she had an almond bubble tea which was good (yeah I took a couple sips).

Then later on was the Two Hearts celebration at Sacred Heart. That was okay too. Some line dancing was done. Food. And yummy desserts. And I got to walk it out with Gretchen and Rachel, haha.

And I'm just done now.

I factory restored my computer again since last year because of the stupid things that I've installed/uninstalled and it messed my computer up. But now its fine and good for now. Yay. This time no more stupid things that I'm going to install. Like that FlyAKite program. Don't get it. I tried to make my comptuer look like a mac. Hah. Stupid.

Okay I'm done. I'm doing laundry and still putting all my files on my computer from my external hard drive. I love that little thing. 160GB of pure backup help. Lol. I'm such a dork.

BYE. I have work Tues, Wed, and Thurs this week, but at the end of the week, its NYC baby to see WICKED! HOORAH!

Oh Love...

Lordy Lord, I hate watching romantic movies but I do love them. I hate watching because then it only makes me wish I had that. I'm such a hopeless romantic. It's so sad. Yeah I just watched Adam & Steve. It was a good movie... I wish I had a guy.

Anyway, I can keep those sob stories and thoughts to myself. Let me tell you about what I've been doing.

So yesterday, I stayed over in Atlantic City with my family and Monette. It was good times. We mainly boardwalked it. Yup. Went to the new Pier Shops area or whatever it's called. Some nice stores in there... there's an Apple Store! How awesome?! Haha, I'm such a dork. Well yeah we came back today and such and then we picked up Mariel and then headed to the movies to watch an effed up movie, Mr. Brooks. Hah it was good, but seriously crazy. I recommend it if you like thrillers/suspense/WEIRD movies. Like me. Hah.

So tomorrow I work from 10-4 and then after it's the Two Hearts thing at Sacred Heart. Yeah. I have to wear red.

Which brings me to the "I HATE BEING FAT" point of the entry. Haha. You knew it was coming. Ugh I really wish I was skinny. Maybe then I'd have a better chance to find someone. Whatever, I just need to keep on at it and really commit. I need to change before I go back to Boston. There are some hot guys in the city, LOL.

So after the movies, I hung out with Jackie. We went to the Burl Co Lib to watch the Swan Lake performance in the ampitheater... except it was moved inside for some reason? I didn't catch the reason why. But it was nice. Lots of elderly enjoying the two hot young guys and three hot girls. Haha. Yeah.

Then we hit up the DVDs and I got some movies, including Adam & Steve. I was lucky to find it. I'm adding it to my collection, if you know what I mean. Yeah. ;D

And then we headed to the Burlington Center, walked around for a couple, then went to Wawa for some F'REAL! milkshakes. YUM.

Sweet.

Damn I wish I was skinny.

Anyway, just a quick update before I head off to bed, I need sleep...

And I just wanted to say, I'm glad I'm working. No more of these really late nights (i.e. 4am) doing absolutely nothing. I have reason to sleep, haha, which is good. Working at the Q! really isn't that bad. I just wish I knew how much I was being paid, and when I'll be getting my first paycheck. Maybe I'll ask tomorrow. Yeah. And I definitely think I like the morning shift better than nighttime/close shift. Mmhmm.

Goodnight, I'm going to try and clean my room before I head to bed.

And I have another unrealistic "want." Leopard comes out in October, so I want to try and get a Mac over winter break of next year. Yeah I know, it'll never happen. I just wish.

I also need to keep in mind that I need to find a job in Boston, preferably a PHARMACY TECH job so I can start doing my internship hours - which reminds me I need to register... Bleh.

I'll leave you with the John Lennon song...

"Love is real, real is love,
Love is feeling, feeling love,
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love,
Love is reaching, reaching love,
Love is asking to be loved."

Goodnight!

I'm Think I'm Doing Good (basically a job entry)

After only two days of working at the Q! (this is what I'm going to call Quizno's), I feel that I'm doing a good job so far. Except I made a boo-boo today. I was making a side salad, but it was my first time making a side salad... and I was told it was just like making a regular salad... so I made it like a regular salad - meat, red onions, tomatoes, and cheese, and the dressing on the side. Except in a side salad, there's no meat. Only in the flatbread chopped salad, do you put meat. So I made a boo-boo. Damn. Oh well, I'll do my best to not make a mistake ever again... but it is inevitable, right? But I'll make sure to not make another dumb mistake as such.

So, as I was saying, I do think I'm doing a good job. For just basically being thrown in there and put to work, I'm learning fast. I know how to do the salads (now I do), and I'm quickly learning the sandwich making. Except the wrapper part... I need to learn what sandwiches usually get lettuce, because then I need to ask them if they want salad. But I don't want to ask someone if they want lettuce on a sandwich and then they'll look at me funny because lettuce is usually not on that kind of sandwich... but I'm learning. The people there seem like good people, and they are helping me through. I met the two other people on Wednesday when I was leaving, and they seem cool, too. I just want to meet and be cool with everyone.

I don't want to seem like a fool, but there are some things that bother me. I guess the fact of me not knowing how much I'm actually getting paid bothers me. But I guess I'll find out when I get my first paycheck. And the reason I don't want to ask is because Dan is stressed... oh Filipinos. Ugh to that.

I'm opening tomorrow and I hope Francis is there to help me. Otherwise, I think it'll just be me and Dan, and I was only there at 8am on my first day so remembering everything that has to be done is not quite fresh in my mind. I mean, I've only done it once! We'll see how everything goes tomorrow...

Also, I just started to learn how to slice the meat. And doing everything involved with it, like checking the reserves and checking which meats need to be cut.

Man, where's this workbook that the lady in the video was talking about?! I've yet to see it!

Well, hope this entry was interesting to read, I have other things to rant about but I don't feel the need to put it in here. If you really want to know other stuff, just IM me.

Lates.

I'm working 8-2 tomorrow, so if you want to come visit, I'm sure I'll be in better shape than my first day - (sorry Heather and Rani!)

:)

So It's Monday Once Again

It's June 4th already! Wow has time flown by. My first day at Quizno's is tomorrow so wish me luck! I start at 8am because I have training. Hopefully whoever else is working tomorrow is cool. I met one girl today when I went in to give my papers. She was cool, I guess.

So I have to wear a hat see, but they ran out of hats and instead had visors... So I'm wearing a visor. And I took the visor thinking I'd look okay. However, I come home and yeah, my head is big... so the strap on the back of the hat is almost to the end! Haha. Plus my hair poofs up and is quite unflattering. Which leads me to...

Now I have a question: should I shave my head? I was thinking about it and maybe I should because I've always wanted to, just once in my life. However, I don't know what I'd look like so I never did. But now I'm thinking about doing it, possibly on Wednesday night. Any suggestions? Leave me a comment or message me.

Mmm, and now I just finished a great cup of hot cocoa but now I have to wash dishes. Hoorah. Not really.

Anyway I found another great artist on myspace. Her name is Priscilla Ahn and she is fab. Great indie folk music. Except I can't download her song Lullabye. It says you can download it but whatever I do the window doesn't open up so I can save it. Oh well. Go listen to her.

So tell me, should I shave my head? Because I think I'm really going to do it Wednesday.

Bye!

New Outlook on Life

So finally I got a job working at Quizno's Subs in Burlington Center. Of course it's not a pharmacy technician position, but at least it's something. At least I'll be making money and doing something with my summer besides staying at home being a bum.

I also got a car - my sister got a new car, so they were nice enough to give me her old one. Hooray :)

I may have gotten the job because I know the people running it. They're Filipinos so I've known them for a long time. Right now I don't know how much I'll be getting an hour - I'm guessing minimum? But at this point I don't really care. I'll be making money - which I WILL be saving. It's time to get my life in order.

I've also started to study my Med Terms. Combining forms, word roots, prefixes and suffixes. Hooray.

I've learned to stop feeling sorry for myself and to just do what you need to do. I may be scared doing this stuff but they are things that I have to do. I guess part of it is because I am the youngest of my family and I'm sort of used to everyone doing the "hard things" for me, that I've shunned away from doing those things. But now it's a slap in the face now that it's right in front of me with no one to deal with it - but me. And all I can do is just face all the things thrown at me and sure I'll take it slow at first as I learn things, but I believe that I'll get through it.

I have confidence in myself that I can be a success, in all aspects of life. I just need to learn and give all my effort to do what I want to do, to be who I want to be.

Damn I Just Want To Get Away

I just want to get away. Like by myself. Like when Will went to some island in the Caribbean. I don't know.

I wish my backyard had trees and a big fence all around. Instead I get a view of the entire street behind me and one dying cherry tree all the way next to the side fence. Woop.

Ugh my room is still so messy. It's because I have no place to put anything! It's ridiculous. My room is a small square filled with shit not my own. I mean, there's a full size box spring behind my bed up against the wall. My twin bed doesn't even have a bed frame, which means I can't even put anything underneath. The result is less space. Thanks. I wish i had a frame like at school. Super high up so I could put mad stuff underneath. But no.

SHiT.

It really makes me mad because I can't do anything about it, and then I get yelled at. Fuck that.

I'm dunzo for now. If you want to see how ridiculous my room situation is, ask me. Haha. Yeah.

It's Been 3 Weeks

Three weeks since I've been home. Wonderful. And I have done absolutely nothing. Expect maybe order my Med Term book. Which I haven't really opened yet. Ugh. Life sucks here.

It seems to be that my youtube craze is calming. But that's only because I have nothing to talk about. Or don't really want to talk about things for all to see, in my most vulnerable state. I want to talk about meaningful things, not just how my day was, and the rest of the video filled with silence and/or "ums." That sucks. I wouldn't want to watch a video like that. We will see. I want to record myself playing "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds and singing it if I can, but I haven't quite mastered the rhythm of the singing part to go along with the piano. Oh well.

Well I need a job. I cannot be staying at home in my tornado-strucken room. I've applied to many places. CVS has fucked me over, to say in the best way. Yeah. I could've gotten a position as a Pharm Tech at Deborah, however, they were looking for someone who was able to work year-round. Obviously I can't do that because I go to school in Boston. Yeah. So they hired someone else. Funny though, the lady told me 2 other applicants were in the same position as me, where they do not go to school in the area, but was applying for the Pharm Tech position. Oh well. I got an e-mail from Walgreens saying they were interested and junk, however, I've called the woman back twice already and left voicemails, and e-mailed back, but no response yet. And nothing back from Acme yet. I just applied to Walmart and Shoprite.

It seems that I've gotten so used to the taste of failure that I don't even care what happens to me in the future. Seriously, I'm fat, unemployed, and contribute nothing to the world. All I do is stress my family out, and take their money and eat their food. Why am I alive?

Thanks.

And I believe that everything is stemmed from that faithful day during senior year, the first day I ever deliberately cut school because it was the day after prom weekend. It was that day when I crashed my car and life spiraled down from there. I should've just gone home with Jackie and made everyone else smush into the other two cars. So since I didn't have a car, I didn't have a job the summer before I left for college. But then that's just my fault. Because why couldn't I just get a job where it was close enough to walk to... say Acme? Why? Why didn't I do it? Because I'm a fucking retard, that's why. Wonderful. So summer wasted. Yay.

Last summer, same reason. Didn't work. But again, why didn't I work at somewhere close? Again, because I'm a fucking retard. I see you're catching on to the pattern. Congrats to you. Instead I did the show with the Rancocas Interfaith Players, until the beginning of August.

I SUCK AT LIFE.

And now I feel that I am so behind everyone else, because during those times that I was dilly dallying and wasting time at home, sleeping, eating, getting fatter, everyone else was building their foundations for what they have - for what I wish I had now. Pharmacy technician positions at hospitals, pharmacies, wherever, where I'm stuck at ground zero. Woo.

This also goes back to my performance in high school. Why the hell did I slack so much? I could've gotten A's and had a job when I was in high school. It seems like high school was NOTHING compared to my college, which shouldn't have been. I only felt like it was because I simply procrastinated and slacked, mind you I did finish all my work. However, I feel like if I just did not slack, high school would have been a breeze. And then I could've found a job, even just for the weekends or something. Instead I was a fat slob of whom I still am, with no job experience whatsoever. I don't think newspaper carrier "paper boy" counts for anything.

And so I'm left with all these regrets and mistakes that I have made. It sucks that I have only grown up right now. After two years of college. After everyone has been there for years and I'm just arriving.

The only thing I can do now is just accept it and do whatever I can to catch up with the others. And to just swallow whatever life throws at me and just do it.

vlog #4

vlog #4

if anyone even reads this blogger haha

I am having a great time.

Life is good right now. :)

Classes are going good. Although I wish I was doing excellent. I hope that after this semester my GPA raises.

I want to purchase the Rosetta Stone program: Tagalog. So I can actually learn my native language. Hah. I so wish I could just speak and understand it but not seem like I would be when I talk English. Get what I mean? Eh. I want to go to the PI for a couple months. I'm sure I'll learn it by living there. It's inevitable.

But anyway, in another aspect of life, I am really happy right now.... oh, how happy I am.

The whole youtube thing is slowly getting done. And I mean slowly. Me and Sharon made a video, but I have to edit it though.

Okay must sleep.

:)

Lovely, it's 4:30am and I'm still up.

Ugh. So it's 4:30am. Well, it would be 3:30am only if it were not for daylight savings time. Whatever. So the Academy Bus leaves here at 7:30am. I want to be awake by 6 or 6:30am so I am up and ready and everything. I basically hate taking the bus, but it is the most convenient way for both me and my parents. If I flew, someone would have to go to Philly to pick me up, whereas the bus terminal is simply a 5 minute drive from my house. Whatever, I spend 7 hours traveling, so they would not have to spend 40 minutes driving to and fro. ??? Whatever.

I'm glad to be going back to Boston. I simply CANNOT wait. Friday night I was looking at the schedules so that I might leave today, technically yesterday (Saturday, I mean). But lo and behold, I'm leaving in a couple hours (Sunday). Hopefully I'll get to Boston by 2, 2:30pm-ish. That way I can unpack and start cracking at my work again. Ugh. I simply need to get back into the groove and just get as much done as possible tomorrow, considering I basically got nothing done over this break.

I also hate how everyone's break is THIS coming week. It's lovely.
No, it pisses me off.

I shouldn't have come home. What I should have done was stay in Boston. I would have gotten so much more work done then, being all alone and in a quiet work-worthy environment. Damn it.

Or, I should have gone to Tampa with Sharon to share in the Habitat for Humanity experience. Whatever. Maybe next year. We'll see. I actually want to go somewhere next year. Somewhere BEACHY or FLORIDA? Walt Disney World? I am soo up for that place right now.

Really, I want to go back to Disney World. When I went there for Senior Trip, it was basically one of the few greatest times of my life. It was probably because it was like the first real vacation I have ever been on. I do not count spending 2-3 days in Atlantic City with my parents a vacation. All we do is roam the boring boardwalk or the beach. Not so much fun.

So I don't know if I'm going to go to bed. It is now 4:38am. I might just stay up and actually start reading this book that I need to get done so I can write my book review. Sucks. Hopefully I can get a lot of it read on the bus rides tomorrow. It's only a little bit over 200 pages. However, the thought of writing this book review does not excite me. I also need to start my 10 page research paper, which my professor will probably ask for a draft this coming week. Ugh. Looks like I'm going to have to go into super academia mode. Yay.

Well I found a really awesome song by Forever Thursday called "How Can It Be?" It is quite delightful. Go to http://www.myspace.com/foreverthursdaymusic to listen to it. It's used in the "Calendar" JC Penney commercial, and I simply fell in love with the song.

Well, to anyone reading this that has spring break this week, have an awesome time. I'll be studying it up and whatnot while everyone else is in exotic, beachy, sunny, awesome-weather places.

I wish I could go on a real vacation. Hawaii? Florida? Someplace sunny and beachy. I want to go to the beach right now and just lay in the sun. Without the drones and crowds of people.

I also recently posted two vlogs on youtube. Find it. It shouldn't be that hard.

However, I am tired. I think I'll go nap it. I only have an hour. Bye.

Health, Fitness, and Obesity Surgery

Today I was pretty healthy I guess. I watched what I ate, drank a lot of water, and ran twice on the treadmill. I ran around 1 or 2pm, and then at 8:15pm again. So I'm looking to continue this the whole week before I go back to Boston, so I'll be motivated to get up and go to the gym before classes and run my fat ass on those treadmills.

So anyway I found this article on CNN.com, "Obesity surgery triples among U.S. teens" and I read through it and such. Seems that more teens are getting gastric bypass surgeries and the like than adults. However, it also says that studies show that there are less risks, complications, length of stays in hospital, all of which lead to less overall cost of everything totaled. I don't know how I feel about gastric bypass. Obviously I think it should be the last-last-last-last resort to anyone if anything else really does not work. But I believe that for some people it really is their only hope. Eh. I hope I never have to do anything like that. I want to be skinny by summertime. That gives me a couple months to reach my goal. Here's to me sticking to it.

Now that I'm home...

So I got home from Boston yesterday evening around 6:30. I left my Dorm a little after 10am and caught the 11:30 bus from South Station to New York. I got to Port Authority around 4pm, but the next Academy Bus to Westampton wasn't going to leave until 5pm, so I just waited by the gate until boarding started. Those LCD scrolling screens said that there was filming in progress around Port Authority that involved fake explosions and fake guns... I wonder which film it is. Hmm. Ha, wouldn't it have been great if i was asked to be an extra last-minute? Lol. I don't know how they do it, but that would've been awesome.

Anyway, I went shopping today at Marshall's, Sears, and Macy's to get some nice dress clothes for the future. My current dress black pants are too big :( so I got nice fitting pants. Except I need to lose weight - my ass is so big, I hate it. I really do. I'm going to start running tomorrow and hopefully by the end of the week I'll have some sort of change, or at least motivation to go run when I'm up at school.

I need to start getting more dress and casual clothes for when I have to start dressing professionally. Now all I need is a good jacket/blazer with real pockets that fits me well. I just need to lose weight.

I guess this turned into a whole body image entry. Eh. Well, I'm excited to run tomorrow and to start getting all my freaking homework done. Whoop de DOO.

Peace, love, and plutonium.

`adrian

Two Tests Down, A Boy Criticized For Being Smart?

Here I am, Wednesday night (technically Thursday early morning already) in my 5th floor student lounge of the lovely Matricaria Hall at MCPHS Boston. I have two tests down this week and have two more to go. Tomorrow it is my Drugs & Behavior midterm. On Friday I have statistics exam #1. Then it's the Brown Sugar Cafe on Friday night with Sharon for some Thai food. Then on Saturday morning, it's off for New Jersey for Spring Break. Woot.

So I've been trying to go to CNN.com to be more aware of the news. This morning or yesterday, I don't remember, there was a story about a teen who was being criticized and even beat up for getting a scholarship to a prestigious high school in NYC. (It was either NYC or the Bronx.) It was his friends from the Bronx who made fun of him. I don't think that's right at all. He is the one who's striving to be the best to be able to have a good future, to be a good role model for his little brother. I just think that kids these days are becoming more immature and juvenile. It seems that they are regressing, instead of progressing towards something better, for it seems that they should be due to all this new found technology and convenience that we have. However, it seems that it is simply doing just the opposite. More and more younger children are becoming addicted to video games, computers, cell phones, MySpace. Eh. Just some of my thoughts.

Update later when I am home in NEW JERSEY.

So I've Moved...

So I've moved from livejournal.com to here, obviously. I cleverly used LinuxLore's awesome tool to migrate my livejournal entries to here. I like this better. And I hope I can write more and share more of my thoughts on things on here... except that probably will not happen this week.

It is currently Monday morning and I woke up to a mass of snow falling to the earth. I do not know when it started, but it's currently 10:39 and it is still falling. Salman thinks that school will closed tomorrow. However, I doubt that that will happen, due to the many tests our beloved MCP professors have pinned on us this week. I currently have four exams, one each day, starting tomorrow: two midterms and two regular exams. I love it (that's sarcasm...). There's just so much studying to do and so little time. My Women In History midterm is tomorrow, Orgo Exam #2 Wednesday, Drugs & Behavior midterm on Thursday, and my Statistics Exam #1 is on Friday. Whoopee!

So now I'm going to get back to studying before I have Orgo class at 12pm. And I need to buy my bus ticket home... except I don't know if I should leave on Saturday or Sunday. Hmm. I'll probably leave Saturday morning. Or I could go to Tampa with Habitat For Humanity with Sharon. I always did want to go and help out for a good cause. It's short notice though... we'll see what happens by the end of the day.

OH and so by the way, my two good friends, Sharon and Hilary, are all finished pledging for AZO. However, I don't know what is going to happen to our relationships as friends. I feel I'm going to get second hand all the time now. I guess that's life then, huh?

Okay, well enough blabbing. I must get back to studying. Oh, and I wish I had a camera or something. I would really like to post some videos on YouTube and actually start using my account. Meh, I guess that'll happen when I get my MacBook... which is in the distant future.

`adrian

Short update...

So I'm sitting here in my room. And I believe the Super Bowl has just started. Except I'm not watching it. Obviously... sorry, but my interest in football is still the same. I'd watch it only for the half time show and commercials. But it's not like I'm missing out on anything. I watch my shows online now because I can't watch them the scheduled time because I'm doing work or studying.

Which gets me to my other point... I'm studying for my first big orgo exam tomorrow! I'm scared... I need to do well, like I said before, I want a great GPA this semester. So yeah.

So this week is: Orgo test, chorus, call from Realtor hopefully, Women in History essay due, Europe homework (UGH), and studying more and more. I need to start my oral presentation, research for my PAE for HCD, and start reading my book for Europe's book review and my research paper.

Ugh okay, later, I'm going to Simmon's library to study w/ Brigitte. And I want some chocolate. Or something. Meh. I'm a fatty.

Mehhhhh.

So I'm sitting here, eating my spanish rice. Yum.

Except right after I'm done I need to go do homework and study and everything else school-invovled.

I have a Statistics quiz tomorrow. I need to get a 100. I want a 4.0 this semester... or close to it. I need to bring up my shitty GPA.

I need to start working on my Women In History oral presentation on Ella Fitzgerald.

I need to start doing research on my Policy Analysis Exercise for Health Care Delivery.

I need to read for my Europe class and get those posts done online.

I need to start reading this 25 dollar book that I just bought at Harvard COOP for that book review in that class.

I need to start doing my research paper for that class as well.

I need to start my essay for Women In History.

I need to study for Organic Chem b/c I have a BIG exam this coming Monday.

I need to buy more Wound Wash Saline for my ear. :\

I need to finish my Drugs & Behavior paper.

I need to find music to do for this a cappella group that I'm starting.

I need to get down to business.

AND I need to freaking NOT be SICK ANYMORE :(

One week passed.

So it's been about one week since I've been back at school. And I freakin' have had soo much reading. I'm taking six (6) classes.

Women in History
Drugs & Behavior
Europe in the 20th Century
Introduction to Health Care Delivery
Organic Chem II
Statistics

The first three are electives and require a lot of reading. There's also a lot of reading in Health Care Delivery and Organic Chem II. A lot of reading. Man.

So yeah. I really need to keep up with the reading.

I'm also waiting for my Women in History book, which my family sent to me. So hopefully I'll get it tomorrow.
And tomorrow, I'll be waiting for a call from the realtor to tell me if they got my deposit or not, and thus if I got the apartment as well. Hopefully. As I've recently written, this is why the prospect of having my own apartment just keeps getting better and better.

Some roommate stuffs are just getting a bit annoying than they ever were before. And this is with Salman, unfortunately. Ehh, I'll just have to deal with it. I have a nice studio apt. all to myself to look forward to next year. Hoorah.

Ehh. Another long week of school is ahead. Chorus starts tomorrow. Work and orchestra will start soon as well. Thank God my schedule is so banging. Hah. Which means I will have to study in the morning before class. Yay.

Okay. I'm going. Need to go read more.

woop.

Even though no one reads this, I'm going to start writing in this again. I'd like to think that someone would at least glance at it. Haha. I feel like I need to just write, keep my mind productive, when I'm not studying and reading my ass off. This semester is going to be a dooze(sp?) Boy, is my plate full. At least I found a great studio apartment (doesn't come cheap) for next year! And the realtor guy was cute too, haha. Well, I'll keep everyone me posted. Bwahaha.

hmm

Yeah, no one reads this anymore.

dunzo.

Ugh. Including tomorrow, 5 more BUSY days.

So yeah. These past couple days, and including the days ahead are BUSY BUSY, up until I leave for home on Tuesday.

So I need to do my World Lit paper, do my Physics Lab for Monday morning, and hardcore hardcore study for the Orgo exam Monday. Today, I had my Microbio exam. It wasn't that bad. Thank God I had those tests. They really helped. And like I said before, I really need a good grade. Because Microbio has been kicking my ass. So yeah.

I'm getting ready for the Colleges of the Fenway Orchestra Concert tonight.

After that, I'm coming back here to try and get most of my World Lit paper done. Because there is soo much Orgo to study, and I've barely touched it (because it's been Microbio all week). Ugh. And all day Saturday, I'm going to NYC to watch Chicago (w/ the MCPHS Arts & Lits Club). We're leaving here at 6am. So yeah, early night friday. And we're leaving NYC at about 8pm, so we'll get back here around 1am? So on the bus ride there, I'm going to be studying Orgo, or doing my paper. I'm only bringing a couple things because I sure as hell do not want to be carrying my books all around NYC the enitre day. So yeah.

I'm coming home Tuesday after my classes. I'll be home by 11pm. Hopefully.

Oh and I accidently stuck myself w/ the ether syringe in orgo lab today. Yeah.

Hopefully I won't die.

Peace.

blahh di da...

Gah. These past couple of weeks have been tiring. College is fucking hard, let me say that. And bad suitemates don't make it any better.

So yeah, every week there is always like an exam or something big due. But this week, there isn't! Except for an economics quiz due Friday... but that should be fine. Otherwise, after this week, theres an exam every week until finals. And then finals. Oh man. I should really start studying for finals now, especially for Microbiology, because I am really not doing so hot in micro. I don't want my GPA to go lower than my minimum GPA, because then I will lose my scholarship. And no one wants that happening. Hopefully I'll actually get A's or at least even A-'s this semester and it'll "cancel" out the bad micro grade. Gah. I was really considering dropping it and taking it in the Spring or even summer. But then that conflicts with everything else. I'll have to make sure I find an apartment soon, and a job around here (if i were to take it in the summer). If I were to take it in the Spring, I'd have to drop an elective, and then take something in the summer back at home somewhere, depending on what I want to take for my required courses. Ugh. So yeah. I'm just going to stick it out. Hopefully it won't be bad. I don't know what's wrong with me and micro...

Well the suitemate situation seems to get worse. Both Ben and Jason can be assholes. But Ben seems to be the bigger asshole. Jason just needs to learn to grow up in a world that doesn't revolve around him, and Ben needs to become a lot more open-minded. Whatever, it's not my place to say. Or maybe it is, I am their suitemates, and is there responsibilty for me to try and help? Hmm.

Well I do think Ben is an asshole. He's ridiculous. He'll just shout, "FUCKING NIGGERS." He, however, is not racist, for he has many black friends, listens to rap music, and watches a lot of sports. A LOT of sports. That ass never turns off the sports. Shit, it's my TV and all he does is watch sports. I'm tired of the fucking announcers and their whistles and the crowd. And the damn intro music (which Ben was playing on his computer on REPEAT. Who does that? Please tell me.) Ugh.

So the weekend before Halloween, Friday to be exact, I went to a Halloween party and got crunked. I dressed up as Brandon from the "But It's Better If You Do" video. It was an alright attempt. If you want to see, I'll show you. So yeah, I had fun, and I got crunked because I wanted to forget about Micro. Yeah. That was the last time I partied though.

I can't wait for Thanksgiving. I can't wait to go home and see everyone. I want to go to RV and visit Mrs. Chait. It'll be a year exactly since I saw her, because last year I went to visit her during Thanksgiving break. That was the last time I went to RV. I'm excited to talk to her about my World Literature class, lol. Yeah, I'm a dork. I'm only excited because I've changed since leaving high school. And by that, I mean I've changed my study/homework habits. Which should've happened during high school, not 2nd year of college. Oh well. I do regret slacking off in high school. I wish I didn't. I wish I was smart and that I actually did my homework at home and not during tutorial. Damn was I a bad student. Shit. It's crazy because all these freshman used their AP credits to get out of classes like Statistics and Psychology. I didn't even take those classes. Whatever, my school needs a 4 or 5 for AP Credit anyway.

Okay well there's a short little update. I need to go take a shower and do mad homework before work, 5-8.

I am a little sad though, but I'll save it for a rainy day...